It's been about a year now since I showed up, confused and disoriented, on the steps of Light's Hope Chapel with the rest of the Death Knights that Mograine and Fordring freed. I didn't realize that until I heard some of the other Death Knights talking about it at the tournament grounds this morning because I never made note of the date. When it happened the idea of dates, of even tracking time in some way other than the planning and execution of plans and orders, had been foreign to me for years. The Scourge are immortal, the Scourge have no need to mark the passage of time. And now it's been a year since I ceased being one of them, and in defiance of them I am marking it.
I like to think I've made progress since then. There was so much I couldn't remember when I first broke away, and so much I couldn't handle. The Argent Dawn helped me find my sister, who gave me my family name back and helped me piece together some of who I had been in life. I found a new cause with the Forsaken and the Executioner, though I am still as much Ebon Blade as Forsaken. I confronted Etheris and faced the fact that he didn't want to be redeemed, and in doing so I found the strength to face myself. I still feel like what happened between us was a tragedy, because for all he did I know he really did love me in his twisted way. I still regret that it had to come to destroying him. Maybe over time that will fade. I've found a soulmate, though, in the least likely of places. I've gained more control over my powers and my swords. I've grown into what I've become. There's still a lot I don't remember, but I've come a long way from having to be told my own name.
When I brought it up Ten asked if he should get me a present for it. I guess it is like a birthday of sorts. I don't actually remember when my birthday is, or even know how I'd figure my age. I was 18 when I died, but that was 8 years or so ago, wasn't it? Do the years since count? The more I remember, the more I feel that they do.
What will the next year bring? The fall of the Lich King? Will I even make it another year? All the rumors point toward a push to Icecrown Citadel itself soon. I find the idea of my own death almost incomprehensible. I've been through too much already to imagine anything taking me down. But if we do succeed against the Lich King, what will my purpose be? I have a feeling I'll know in another year's time.
I like to think I've made progress since then. There was so much I couldn't remember when I first broke away, and so much I couldn't handle. The Argent Dawn helped me find my sister, who gave me my family name back and helped me piece together some of who I had been in life. I found a new cause with the Forsaken and the Executioner, though I am still as much Ebon Blade as Forsaken. I confronted Etheris and faced the fact that he didn't want to be redeemed, and in doing so I found the strength to face myself. I still feel like what happened between us was a tragedy, because for all he did I know he really did love me in his twisted way. I still regret that it had to come to destroying him. Maybe over time that will fade. I've found a soulmate, though, in the least likely of places. I've gained more control over my powers and my swords. I've grown into what I've become. There's still a lot I don't remember, but I've come a long way from having to be told my own name.
When I brought it up Ten asked if he should get me a present for it. I guess it is like a birthday of sorts. I don't actually remember when my birthday is, or even know how I'd figure my age. I was 18 when I died, but that was 8 years or so ago, wasn't it? Do the years since count? The more I remember, the more I feel that they do.
What will the next year bring? The fall of the Lich King? Will I even make it another year? All the rumors point toward a push to Icecrown Citadel itself soon. I find the idea of my own death almost incomprehensible. I've been through too much already to imagine anything taking me down. But if we do succeed against the Lich King, what will my purpose be? I have a feeling I'll know in another year's time.
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